Brain mush

I know it's been forever since I posted a blog, but franklyI just haven't been into it. So, I will start simply with what's been up. Jason has just finished up basketball and we are on our first break from 4 -5 day a week practices and games since August. He is doing pretty well with the loss of Grandma and while Christmas has it's moments, all in all it has been good.

Christmas was okay. I hosted our family Christmas on the day after Christmas and chose to spend Christmas night by myself. As sad as that sounds, it contained no stress and drama - in a word, peaceful.

Sales meeting in San Diego is done. It was great seeing my friends and having some fun in the middle of some long days. It did all seem to go so fast though. I could definitely go for some more 80 degree weather. Now, I am off to Denver for the weekend. I am not working the actual conference but, am booked with customer meetings. I think I could have been there for another day and filled it up. Good lesson for next time.

So, other than that I have been stuck in a spiral. I have not been going to the gym like I was. Mostly this is due to not going because gas prices were so high and now it is just because I am out of the habit. We have not been going to church as regularly as we were. I could come up with a billion excuses - out of town (which is true), break from running all week, etc. But frankly, we have lost a little of the motivation. Every time we go there we both feel so judged. Not by everybody, but by a few, which just ticks me off. No, we are not married and no, we have no plans to. Life is life and it does not permit it at this time. I didn't make the rules, but it is what it is. Jesus didn't judge, what gives the congregation that right? Anyway, I do want to get back into it and just ignore the judgers.

Today, I woke up and just hit a wall. I couldn't tell you the last time I really hit major depression, but today was so bad that I ached right down to my bones and would have gladly stayed in bed all day. So, instead I stuck mostly to email and prepped for my meetings this weekend. It's amazing how much time prepping for 11 appointments can take. We ordered Chinese food and it was great comfort food. Thankfully, I am feeling much better. It is just not like me to be that way.

So, I will try to make a point to at least post something every week and try to get back into the rhythm of life. Back on the road, blog, gym, and church - back to normal :-)