RIP

My ex-MIL and Jason's Grandmother, Veda Daniels, lost her battle with cancer last night. I appreciate the prayers and support that all of you have provided the past few months.

As you know, Jason has been my number one concern and I was not sure how the loss of his Grandmother would effect him. While he has been in a bit of a fog for most of this year and has had some ups and downs he has been doing as well as can be expected and then some. He was a bit off during football season and a couple of his grades have slipped a bit. My goal has been to be understanding, get him to open up, and keep everything as normal as possible. C's are still not acceptable, no matter what. But, I am also right in there helping him to improve them as well.

So, this morning he cried and I kept him home from school figuring he needed the day to deal and get his head straight. By 10:00 he was already bored. His Dad and Grandpa were busy running errands this morning, so I had told Jess we would come over in the afternoon and help with whatever they needed. I did the work I needed to do in the morning and Jason and I spent the rest of the day running a few errands and going through pictures. Jess was going to prepare the collage on poster board, so I volunteered Jason and I to create the collage. Jason was actually excited about it and was happy with it once we were done. Trifold and scrapbooking materials and we put together a really nice collage.

I have to admit that I started to notice a difference in Jason Thursday night when we were going over his math homework. He knew that she was going to pass any day and I think he had accepted it. He cried this morning and was excited by the evening. At this point he seems more relieved than anything else and I could not be happier about that. I think he sincerely saw how much pain she was in and knows that she is no longer suffering. He amazes me and has shown me how resilient and mature he really is being about all of this. I am very proud of him.

And then at 10:20 there was a breakdown and sobbing - poor baby. Strength for a 12 year old only goes so far.